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Monday, April 24th, 2006
2:37 pm	Look Closer for Another Light New Poem: A passion derived from a work left polished the light forever dents the skin of the helpless individual dimly the cleanliness in a welcome mask for an eye always needs safety words of risk never leave the mouth awkward familiarity is a created facade through laughter made unclear bodies need their scorching heat the biting cold to understand something of value vanity is not my pain March 10, 2006 Current Mood: awake (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 24th, 2005
9:08 am	The White Stripes are growing on me. I just downloaded the cover of Tegan and Sara's Walking With The Ghost and it's great. A great take on the original. I also like the new Madonna. Call me crazy. Sale at the Apple Store Friday. Be there. I just want to see what the deals are all about and if it's worth it. Studying makes my eyes go buggy and stomach go tight. Current Mood: sleepy (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, September 25th, 2005
11:53 pm	Thursday I saw Seu Jorge Thursday. Fantastic concert. I'd recommend listening to him whenever you can. Short and sweet. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 5th, 2005
4:07 am	Watches do not look like hands This comic strip made me laugh out loud today. The last panel is priceless. Only 3.5 more days until the move. I can't wait. Current Mood: loved (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 30th, 2005
1:40 pm	An air that made whoosh! Newest poem: Sounds so soft they echo accross watches looks made soft by unneeded bias the land is made anew by words crossing the barriers of the mind probing to find avenues of delight among the duties of living staring at the wrist is activity transcendent wants of a generation are tied only to the word mirrors only reflect an image and not the creature on the feet of objects rests the present willing a mind to forever forget books and tomes and journals but word is the self tied between a fallen heap and the image of the skin words fall before convenience words fall before action seeing a wheel rolling before you at you is removed by blind eyes on the wrist the hand moves to dictate the idea of the world to dictate the love of the word faces forever a reminder minds are made of paper June 19, 2005 (Comment on this)
Friday, June 17th, 2005
10:57 am	Massive bowling balls do not make good paperweights Nausea by Sartre is now finished. What a great book. I was expecting drole language (even when it's translated), but it is actually light and full of thought. Great read. Heavy hitter though because I'm now thinking a lot about his thoughts and how they fit into mine. The next book I've started is Holy Madness by Adam Zamoyski. It's about the rise of anti-theological idealism in society post-French Revolution. This is achieved through striving for "perfection" in our lives and not leaving it that God is perfection and it is something we can achieve only in death. That is a really short synopsis, but it sort of gives the gist of the book. Any history surrounding the French Revolution is very interesting in my eyes. Current Mood: pleased Current Music: Lawn Mowers (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 1st, 2005
12:44 pm	Another paged turned to knowledge There still exists lists of "harmful" books that the world should look at in idle curiosity behind bars against reading. Take a look at the list and see just the types of books this "conservative" website deems harmful; the quotes within the site about the books just make for a great laugh, but also great thought into what these books mean to some people. The site blasts everything from sexuality (hetero and homo), feminism, to leftism. Best quote (sarcastic) is about Marx's Das Kapital: Das Kapital forces the round peg of capitalism into the square hole of Marx’s materialistic theory of history, portraying capitalism as an ugly phase in the development of human society in which capitalists inevitably and amorally exploit labor by paying the cheapest possible wages to earn the greatest possible profits. Marx theorized that the inevitable eventual outcome would be global proletarian revolution. He could not have predicted 21st Century America: a free, affluent society based on capitalism and representative government that people the world over envy and seek to emulate. The best way to sum up this site is to point out that it has its own "affiliate" links to amazon.com to buy the books listed, so they share in the profit of those who buy the books. No longer is it about burning the books, but selling them. Current Mood: mellow (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 29th, 2005
7:17 am	Wearing a large coat for the fun Here's a link to an article entitled "Why Smart People Defend Bad Ideas". It was a fun read. I'm craving a samosa, and it's just after 7 in the morning. Current Mood: amused (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, May 27th, 2005
6:26 pm	J's aren't used enough I'm not feeling too good today. My will has been sucked dry. Enough whining. Where's my book? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 25th, 2005
3:22 am	Somewhere there is oatmeal with a name the same as mine I took a night shift for overtime and my mind is now in la la land. It's good to help out though when it is needed and I hope I get more OT shifts in the future. The weekend was fantastic. C and I had a great time. One of the weirdest parts was finding the homeless man who appeared dead, but wasn't. That was something to write about. There needs to be better nights for dancing in the city. Even just a night of enjoyable music. Everything seems to be a rehash of every other night, or the same music every week. It's as if you wait for the same song each time to come on so everyone can go dance (ie Deceptacon by Le Tigre). Does anyone know some nights, besides Wavelength, where new music from around the world is played regularily? Something to just refresh the mind. The nights now are fun, but are getting old fast. Alfred Hitchcock's Rebecca is fantastic. Go watch and enjoy. Current Mood: tired Current Music: Louis XIV - All The Little Pieces (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, May 6th, 2005
11:38 pm	Created for a large audience of badgers New poem written at the Green Room before the Adam Green concert (I assure you is was a coincidence): It is the life lead so fruitlessly encompassing the ideas within the words you speak eyes envisioning different whispers seeing them as coming from the self it is our visions we protect exclusive locks driving social views examined under the microscope we build secret is the world of the mirrored eyes it is ultimately your own arms used for embrace each encounter is a test of our worth empathy is a vice silence the rule May 2, 2005 Current Mood: awake (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 30th, 2005
1:12 pm	Up in air so thin it's anorexic Ok. This is morbid. I was reading about Canadian, Dr. Sean Egan, who died trying to scale Mt. Everest and got curious about who he was, so I googled him. It turns out that he was a passionate health enthusiast who was climbing the mountain in tandem with students tracking his progress and using him as a role model. The man was only 62. Quotes directly from the last link about the students: "The idea behind it is to show our students, through Dr. Egan's example, the importance of wellness, fitness, setting career goals, and what can be achieved." "I also want to learn what it's like to actually be up there on the mountain," said Van Woozik. "I think this will be so cool," he said. "I've watched a couple of documentaries on Everest and this will be great. I might want to climb it some day too." It's really cool to be dead. The irony is just too weird. Current Mood: awake Current Music: Engineers - Home (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 19th, 2005
9:02 pm	Whispering in the ear So many songs to choose from. The iPod is suiting my nicely. I need to buy a case for it, so that will be next. I got it engraved with: Machines have less problems I'd like to be a machine It's an Andy Warhol quote. One of my favourite. The new New Order is amazing. Krafty just sends shivers down my spine, and the video makes it even better. I think of C. every time I hear the song now. I want crazy dreams tonight. I better get them. Current Mood: tired (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, April 18th, 2005
2:34 am	Forever drawing a line in crayon The iPod arrived a couple days ago. So much fun transferring my music to it (and I still have about a third of my mp3s to go). I can't wait to figure out how to put my photos on it, since I'm not using iTunes to upload my music. I'll figure it out and then some soon. The weekend was great. So many steps taken around the city. I bought about 10 books from a garage sale just south of Bloor. Many philosphy books and the like. It was a good haul. Honest Ed's was fun too; it's too bad I didn't need any junk. A poem written in the Green Room: An authored word stained viciously among lantern visions forms sit on shames left unsaid minds thinking staring into spaces that have no depth settings make the future with eye's projections yet the word is the instrument of the ultimate idea sources of sound swirl with the curling tongue the magnetic field of message makes a ring, distinct attention is called to order within the whispered words unheard and the shreik of projection heard gatherings made beastial through the sheltered drink evenings illuminated in flickered darkness a static room is silent within walls of our identity April 16, 2005 Current Mood: awake Current Music: The Arcade Fire - Neighbourhood #3 [Power Out] (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 7th, 2005
3:07 pm	Small glittering object in the palm of my hand I bought some more records yesterday. Highlights were Surrealistic Pillow by Jefferson Airplane and K-Tel Learn How To Breakdance record, complete with poster teaching me how to body pop and moonwalk. I also picked up a couple of books (Barney's Version by Mordecai Richler and One Hundred Years of Solitude by Gabriel Garcia Marquez). Coffee will be needed in great abundance tonight since I work from 7pm to 7am, and it's the first day of my night shifts. I miss too many good dance nights because of my weekend work, although I do enjoy getting paid. Current Music: Bruce Springsteen's Born in the USA album (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 5th, 2005
8:07 pm	Finding a pebble in your shoe Time goes by too quickly these days to grasp. So many days have gone by and you don't know where they've gone. The past month has been amazing for me and I'm holding onto those memories and the next that are streaming at me. The 14th is Stars at the Phoenix and then May 3 is Adam Green at Lee's. It's so great to get back in the concert loop again and start downloading more music (thank you new 160GB hard drive). I think in the next couple weeks I'm going to be picking up an 30 GB Ipod photo, since I paid off my credit card bill this month after going crazy on clothes shopping (Ben Sherman is my friend). Thank god my brother works for Apple, so I get a sweet discount. I need some new car music and something small I can fit in my bag. Plus I can load Linux on it, and help out in that project (make it a dual boot complete with games and text readers and such). Smiling is my new sport. New York with C. is on the horizon for May. Getting things done is starting to get easier, and I'm very happy about that. Goals will no longer be a figment of some fantasy. Current Mood: loved Current Music: Sons and Daughters - La Lune (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 16th, 2005
5:22 am	Weighing a thousand tonnes Gravity's Rainbow is now finished. What a read that was. Current Mood: accomplished (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 12th, 2005
7:46 pm	Words that made my mind weep Today I got to listen to one of the best shows on the radio called Wiretap. It's basically a show where the host, Jonathan Goldstein, lets you listen in to phone conversations he has with people. I found out later they were written, but they are still compelling. Please listen to this show if you get the chance. Today the second conversation was so beautiful I could not put it down as well as if you heard the show. Jonathan calls up a number of a woman he met on the internet; he is calling her for the first time. I believe her name was Doris. When he phones a man picks up the phone and tells him that Doris has gone out and will be back in a couple minutes, so they start talking together. The man on the other end (I forget his name, so I will call him Bill), starts saying he knows how Jonathan met Doris and they start talking about her. Jonathan relays stories of why Doris seems so great (spreading M&Ms out on a table to look over the colours before eating them, sitting in the bathtub then turning on the shower and pretending she's in the amazon). Bill then starts talking deeply about her and then relays something serious to Jonathan; Doris is right there beside him, and was there the whole time. Jonathan then asks to speak to her, but Bill then tells him something else... he was the one that created the profile. This isn't the bombshell that got me though, it was what Bill said next. Doris was his wife and she had died a year before. He had created the profile to see if he wasn't the only one who knew about Doris and if there were more people out there who would know about her and love her like he did. Bill ended the conversation by asking Jonathan if he wanted to hear her. He put on a tape of her teaching Bill to dance... "One, two, three..." The phone call faded and ended. Current Mood: touched (1 Comment |Comment on this)
6:49 am	An excitement left with hot dogs I've always had trouble commiting to doing work, whether for school, or art, or otherwise. This is really bothering me lately. I don't know what else to say about it. I get huge butterflies when trying. This post is nonsense. I wrote another poem, and it was arduous writing it: Screaching cars move silently on weathered streets movement is an action that drives a static existence forever are the words driving forward toward freedom and backwards towards the fate of yellowing pages hollow are the sentences making days pass like years a space within a living frame made the fool uniqueness no longer drives our hands understanding derived by the length of a shadow direction is arbitrary I hear no sound no words pass my lips alleys hide my position the past created by my footsteps in the snow creation is my mantra the meaning of responsibility is a constant fear for a day of beginnings must always end and my endings are infinite Mar 12, 2005 Current Mood: lethargic (Comment on this)
Monday, March 7th, 2005
1:16 pm	The Ides of March drive the Roman's insane Watch out all you Ipod enthusiasts. This news story has been told by me to many, many people, so here's a news story about it happening: NYU warning students not to use iPod headphones Taken from The Morning News In other news I am seriously considering an Ipod, since I can get a discount, and I want to listen to my mp3s more in the car, and I want to run Linux on it. Current Mood: happy (Comment on this)